life is fleeting // a collection of my thoughts

25 January 2017

Life is fleeting.  What a short statement.  What a...a...harsh statement.  I've just been thinking about this a lot lately, and I realized that I don't really do a lot of posts where I just...TALK about what I'm thinking about (probably because most of my thinking is done at night when I don't feel like typing and I don't really know how to put my words into cute eloquent thoughts) but you know what today I am so OH WELL HERE IT GOES.

No, I haven't just had any super tragic event happen in my life, but I think what made me really think about this a lot is the fact that...whether I honestly like it or not, time goes by.  Fast.  Faster than I realize.  The years merge into each other and fly by.  And sure, there are times when it seems like LIFE IS SO SLOW UGH but ha. ha. ha.  Really? No.  Time might seem to be going really slow for a short period of life, but I'm telling you, it doesn't really last.

Some day you'll look back (and to be honest, I feel like this is something people face in their mid-life crisis situation? UM YEAH NO WHAT.  Not me!! xD) and realize that time has gone by so much more faster than what any one of us realized.

Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different? -C.S. Lewis

 Isn't it funny.  So, so funny.  I was up for about an hour this morning before I got up, in the crack of dawn, and I was trying to pray.  But my mind kept wandering (which was really annoying actually).  Isn't if funny how back when I was in middle school (fifth grade is what I was thinking of specifically), the future seemed so big and open and vast? The future was--where I am today.  Because I didn't see past that.  I didn't see past where I am right now.  This was the future.

I am living -- right now -- in what was the future, but is now the present.

Wow.  That is so hard for me to grasp in my mind, honestly.  I know when I was younger, I'd always hear people talk about how "the older you get the faster time flies!" How exciting, I probably thought.  That wasn't the biggest thing I was worried about that time, okay.  But now? Am I older? Yes.  Have I grown up? Yes, probably.  It's called living life.  It's not an option.  (This is a whole other topic but I think "growing up" in this sense...is...like....life.  We all grow up...in that sense.)

So I'm older now.  I'm not in fifth grade.  And that future I'd think about then -- the few times I did bother to do that -- is here.  I'm in it.  I am living in the present.  And what am I going to do with it?  Ouch.  Looking back on the past is so easy.  The golden days.  When things were so much more brighter than they are now.  The future.  What is the future? It's tough. I can see the end of some things now...like school.  In fifth grade, I definitely wouldn't have thought about that.

But you know what I figured out? I'm here, right now.  And what's more -- TODAY IS A GIFT.  Today is a gift from God.  A gift that I will never get back.  I've been allowed -- He has granted me one more day to live for His glory on earth.

I can't waste this opportunity.  Not now, not ever.

Jeremiah 29:11 is a verse that I feel is quoted so, so much, but maybe it's because it gives people so much hope.  "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Wow.  God is so good.  I know for me that's one thing I will never be able to fully comprehend.
Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion,
    which cannot be moved, but abides forever. -Psalms 125:1
I am so blessed.  I have this chance to live.  And you know what? Life is fleeting.  But these days -- when they're the past -- they won't be totally gone. They will always be a part of me.  That won't change.    But right now I'm alive, right here, and I want to enjoy this gift of life that God has blessed me with.  I'm going to live in the moment with all I have for Jesus.  Every second that we can breathe is a undeserved gift.  No one is promised a tomorrow.  Today's state may not be tomorrow's. 

A week ago, I was wondering how it could be possible to live in the moment and enjoy the now that we are blessed with, when there is so much else going on around.  How is it even possible to live...life...when there's so much junk around us?

When we realize that life is fleeting, but God is not, and He is God.

God has blessed me...in the past, most definitely! but also RIGHT WHERE I AM.  I already said this, but I'll say it again.  I am so blessed. And I need to start realizing that, and living like it, instead of wasting this life. I think we've all heard the phrase "no regrets", and that is how I want to live my life.  With no regrets.  And for me, the way that I can do that is by looking to God...only.  He's the one that holds my life. And I'm living for Him.

Everything in life is fleeting, but only God is eternal. 

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SO HA NOT SURE WHAT THIS POST WAS BUT YES.  A rant, maybe.  More like all my thoughts piled into one post.  HOPEFULLY IT MADE SENSE TO YOU ALL.  What have you been thinking about lately? What do you think about this post? Isn't it crazy how fast life goes by?  God is good, though, that's all I can say.  What have you been doing lately? (AND have you ever tried coffee cake with coffee ice cream?  [yes this is important] IT IS SO GOOD.)

-autumn 

21 comments:

  1. I've followed your blog for a while, and I'm not sure I've ever commented on a post... but today I have to.
    This was absolutely beautiful, Autumn. It encouraged me, and . . .yeah. I agree with everything you said. :) "Everything is fleeting, but God is eternal." YES. Such an amazing truth and it so easy to lose sight of. Thank you so much for posting! <3

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    1. OH MY GOODNESS :') Jeseca, your comment means so much to me. Like, so much. You are so kind! THIS JUST MADE ME SO HAPPY EEEE. It is so hard to lose sight of that...but it's so important too <3

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  2. and omw THE GREAT AUTUMN HAS DONE IT AGAIN

    even the graphics *dies* i could never do that <3333

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    1. HAHAHA YEAH RIGHT VERY FUNNY

      haha even though it wasn't perfect, eh? ;)

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  3. OH MY GOSH, AUTUMN!!!! This post just became one of my favorite blogger posts. I'm going to come back to this again and again and again!

    This topic seems to be on my mind SO MUCH. I was just organizing my room the other day, and as I was getting rid of some things I just stopped and realized "wow, so much has happened. And I'm HERE, where I thought about so much." It hit me again this morning as I was reading Revelations in the Bible, just how fast time goes by and I don't want to waste a moment of it.

    This is an amazing beautiful post. I really needed to hear this from someone else, so thank you.

    <3
    audrey caylin

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    1. EEEP AUDREY!!! I can't believe that and that means so much to me <33 THANK YOU DEAR. *is smiling like crazy*

      SAME HERE. I don't know why exactly I've been thinking about it a lot, but it's definitely been on my mind a lot. REVELATION IS SUCH A GOOD BOOK ADFJSKAfjL Time goes by so fast, YES. It's crazy. HOW EVEN DOES IT HAPPEN?? :D

      Thank YOU, girl! It means a lot that other people understand. I wasn't sure if it would even make sense or not xD

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  4. "Everything is fleeting". I've been having similar thoughts recently, but it wasn't until reading this post that the thoughts were put into words! I mean, how strange is it that some day our present will become someone else's past? Do you know what I mean? And your words...this entire post blew me away. Autumn, well done.

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    1. RIGHTTTT???? I feel like a lot of people realize it, it's just that it's hard to...comprehend? Even for me, I know that can sometimes be the case. YES I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! Like, just in a few short years, things will be so different. And I won't be a part of that -- because I'll be somewhere else. DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE HAHA

      EEEEP thanks <3

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  5. Anonymous1/25/2017

    AUTUMN. THIS.....
    <3<3<3

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    1. I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for reading, Clara <3

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  6. I really enjoy rants/thoughts like this, y'know? They're so raw, and it's so cool to see how other people think about and approach topics. This is definitely a scary one. We don't like to think about all the time we're "wasting", about how fleeting life is, about how much we're going to miss and how we won't be here forever. But at the same time...God is eternal, and he wants us to be with him, and we WILL one day. And he is in control.

    I just feel like that's pretty comforting.

    - Aimee (To the Barricade!)

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    1. YES *cough* Actually, your posts like this are kind of what inspired me to write this tbh.
      BUT YES THEY ARE PRETTY AWESOME. That is so true! It's crazy...because like even if we get so wrapped up in the future, we forget to live NOW. Loved hearing your thoughts!

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  7. AUTUMN YOU SLAYED THIS POST.

    wowowowow love this so much <3

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  8. Although I'm not religious. This was a very nice post, we are the future and we live it now. Writing this comment is part of the future. Okay, now I am going to deep. Haha. Lovely post.

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    1. Haha, I'm glad you liked this post! lol RIGHTTTTTTTT but God is faithful and that gives me hope <3

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  9. This is a brilliant post. I kind of needed this at this point in life. But you're absolutely right, and it sometimes amazes me how we can forget the simple fact that we are living, alive and breathing and given so many opportunities. It's a wonder! <3

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    1. EEEP I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT!! Truly, it is. Like so often I just have to stop myself and say "God, thank you that I'm ALIVE." This gift of life is so precious. All of life is all for Jesus <3

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  10. Anonymous1/29/2017

    I've been trying hard to live each day rather than looking back or forward. This post sums all of that up <3

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  11. This reminded me of Isaiah 40:8, "The grass withereth, the flower fadeth: but the word of our God shall stand for ever." The only thing that's sure in life is God and His Word. Everything else is fleeting, like you said.

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