why, God, why?
isn't that what everyone asks -- why?
i believed for miracles
and i know my pathetic faith
was and is no match for Your endless might.
but right now
it's hard to see the end.
it's hard to see where this is going to go.
when the future is so unknown
and all my life feels as if it were nothing
God, i need You.
oh i need You so so much
return God. return to your servant.
my eyes and my head tell me one thing
reality agrees with them.
but is that really how it's going to end?
was everything hoped for...a dream?
it can't be, it can't be, Father.
this can't be the way it ends.
how am i supposed to go on?
God, my life is nothing without you.
and after these tears roll away,
and after my eyes blur over your Word.
God, You only remain. You only are still there.
your love, God. your boundless, faithful love.
why? i don't deserve it. not after the way i keep
going back to what i see by sight and not by faith.
not after all that i do to You.
but that's who you are. a good, good Father.
it's so hard. and You know that better than anyone.
yet, it was only because of You that i was so blessed.
and now when my heartfails, and i can't understand,
help me to trust your timing.
and that regardless of what happened
what's happening, and what's going to happen
to realize that the only reason i'm here
is because of You, God.
Father, help me to trust You
and increase my faith.
find rest, my soul, put your hope in God. He only is our refuge and strength.