find rest

world spinning
thoughts racing
why, God, why?
isn't that what everyone asks -- why?
i believed for miracles
and i know my pathetic faith 
was and is no match for Your endless might.
but right now
it's hard to see the end.
it's hard to see where this is going to go.
when the future is so unknown
and all my life feels as if it were nothing
God, i need You.
oh i need You so so much
return God. return to your servant.

my eyes and my head tell me one thing
reality agrees with them.
but is that really how it's going to end?
was everything hoped for...a dream?
it can't be, it can't be, Father.
this can't be the way it ends.
how am i supposed to go on?

God, my life is nothing without you.
and after these tears roll away,
and after my eyes blur over your Word.
God, You only remain.  You only are still there.
your love, God.   your boundless, faithful love.
why?  i don't deserve it.  not after the way i keep
going back to what i see by sight and not by faith. 
not after all that i do to You.
but that's who you are.  a good, good Father.
it's so hard.  and You know that better than anyone.
yet, it was only because of You that i was so blessed.
and now when my heart
fails, and i can't understand,
help me to trust your timing.
and that regardless of what happened
what's happening, and what's going to happen
to realize that the only reason i'm here
is because of You, God. 
Father, help me to trust You
and increase my faith. 

find rest, my soul, put your hope in God.  He only is our refuge and strength. 


spring | a video

heyyy guys! how are you all doing? GUYS I CAN'T BELIEVE THE WEATHER THESE DAYS.

this whole weekend it's been so fantastic, and monday it was like to be like eighty degrees :) EEEEEKKK ♥ i'm so happy right now, guys.
i made a video.
if you guys remember from a long LONG time back, i made a video about winter.  That video wasn't that great, but it was a start. The second video i posted on here was at the end of last summer (oh wow.  i just thought about it.  the end of last summer.  summer's almost here for THIS year.  whaaaatt.) i made a back to school diy notebook inspiration video or something like that.

  I've always loved making videos, and i'm DEFINITELY not that good at it, but it's something i enjoy.  so anyway....last year for spring i just did a post where i slapped a whole bunch of cute spring photos together and threw a few quotes in and boom made a spring post.  but for this year, i wanted to do something more, creative.  so for like the last whole week i've tried compiling clips i took of flowers, grass, grass, grass, and clover meadows (OH MY WORD think about that.  if you say grass like a lot of times it sounds really weird.  WEIRD.) and today i threw them together in my um, interestingly uniquely somewhat lousy  amazing video editor and i'm presenting it to you.  haha, i uploaded it to youtube and i embedded it into this post, but i wanted to try to stabilize the shaky shots with the feature on the youtube video editor first, but it's literally the WORST THING EVER.  it makes the entire video look like it was shot by a robot.  UGH.  whatever.... :P

ASDKFJDSFKDS. SO YUP. HERE IT IS  MAKE SURE YOU GO IN HD (cuz otherwise the quality sucks)

the moment of truth is here.


so what did you think? HOW SHOULD I IMPROVE? what was your favorite part? least favorite? HONEST NOW, guys.  too shaky? (blame youtube for that one.) 

so, what's up with you guys?  does the weather feel like SPRING yet for you guys? I'm like so freaking blessed with all this amazing weather....♥ ..

Alright, so i think that's it for this post.  have an amazing life and keep smiling :) 

- autumn 


made to inspire #10



soft light.:  :

all pictures via pinterest 

"Some old-fashioned things like fresh air and sunshine are hard to beat."
- Laura Ingalls Wilder 

spring is here (minus the april snow showers) and the days are filled with sunshine and fresh air ♥ it's the most wonderful time of the year.  also, i think i'm going to call this series "made to inspire" from now on.  i think it's more fitting.  =) 

- autumn 


5 Pros and Cons of Writer's Conference

i know, i know.
how on earth can there be cons to a writer's conference?
well, there isn't any real con CONS to it, just things that for next year, i'll keep in mind.  =)

so HEY guys!  how are you all doing? i'm doing prettttyyy fantastic, *ahem*, yeah.  so, if you read any of my recent posts, you may or may not have noticed that i ranted for like a whole paragraph on each about this Writer's and Artists' Conference that i was going to go to.

so for a part of last week, i was at a freaking writer's conference.
*coughs violently* yeah.
so that happened.
and it was pretty awesome.

it was an incredible experience.  personally i love traveling and meeting new people and having new adventures, and even though i was pretty scared at the beginning, by the end of the time there, my mind was stock full of INSPIRATION.
the feeling is pretty amazing, guys. not even kidding.

ANYWAY.  so...., typical me, i could probably go on for like three years on how incredible and awful and amazing and terrible it was, so i'm just going to hop into this and give you guys some pros and cons of of Writer's and Artists' Conference.

let's get into this.

GOOD FOOD.  no kidding guys, i'm sure that that's got to be one of the best parts.  food is good.

> writing inspiration overload.  it was so great, guys.  like by the end of the conference, i felt so much more confident and just ready to go write a best-seller.   plus the workshops that i attended (*ahem* except the one which i slept through.) were really helpful and meeting real-life authors was like BOOM.

catching up on sleep.  that one workshop was very, very, very boring, i'm so sorry.  i just really don't care to know Christopher Columbus' life story.  and i'm currently not rewriting Moses' life.  PEOPLE SERIOUSLY.  i get how that could possibly be helpful for some people... but definitely not me.  but give me credit, i didn't actually sleep.

> meeting other awesome homo sapiens.  most of the people i met there were really friendly once i got to know them.  it was really uplifting to meet other kindred spirits and to share writing advice and other fun stuff like that.

> traveling.  just the overall experience of meeting new people and adventuring in new places was pretty great.  plus i got to eat at mcdonald's.  come on guys.  that's the best.  lovin' it. ♥ ;)

> meeting new people.  so, yes, this is not a bad BAD thing.  in fact, it's a pretty freaking good thing.  but it still was a bit nerve-wracking at the beginning when we first arrived there and there were just people and people and more people everywhere.  eventually i got to know some of the people there and it was all good in the end ;) my solution to this is to next year take a friend along. xD i know, i know, it's a brilliant solution; don't faint over the brilliance.

>  not enough time.  haha, this one's just the way it is.  at the end of the conference, i literally felt like i could stay there for like two more days.  but oh well, it's all good.

...and i can't think of any more.  so you don't get five cons.  that's a good thing, guys.

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so just saying, you guys are probably all experts at writing conferences and the like.  this is just my take on it, and i'm just sort of picking from my experience. Writer's conferences are the bomb, and you guys should definitely go. (DO.)  it's a wonderful experience, and you'll never regret  it =)

so have any of you guys ever been to one? what's your take on it? are you ever planning on going to one?

have a wonderful week and stay smiling ♥